{"id":140,"date":"2026-01-08T00:15:00","date_gmt":"2026-01-08T03:15:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ziev.com.br\/gpjota\/?post_type=capitulo&#038;p=140"},"modified":"2026-03-06T01:53:19","modified_gmt":"2026-03-06T04:53:19","slug":"part-1-perspective","status":"publish","type":"capitulo","link":"https:\/\/ziev.com.br\/gpjota\/livro\/if-not-now-when\/capitulo\/part-1-perspective\/","title":{"rendered":"PART 1: PERSPECTIVE"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>I woke up with the dream still fresh in my head. Sunday, around nine in the morning.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She was there. Larissa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I don\u2019t really know her. I follow her on Instagram (I\u2019m kinda weird \u2014 I only follow people, don\u2019t let anyone follow me, and yeah, it\u2019s weird to admit I\u2019m weird). That superficial social media thing. She\u2019s friends with an ex-friend of mine. I saw a Threads video of her in a short dress that suited her height perfectly, and somehow it stuck in my head. Yeah, she stuck, hehe. And without meaning to, it turned into a dream. A dream, if you know what I mean.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The dream:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We were walking in this tree-lined park. Giant trees, sunlight filtering through the leaves, perfect afternoon vibe. We were strolling without rushing, chatting, laughing for no real reason \u2014 that kind of day when everything just feels good.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Out of nowhere, this energy hit like \u201cwe\u2019re having WAY too much fun,\u201d and I don\u2019t know what came over me \u2014 I jumped on her back. Like an excited kid at the park. She didn\u2019t even complain; we were cracking up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But then my dream brain went, \u201cNah, I can do better,\u201d and I decided to put her on my shoulders. Yeah, like a World Cup trophy. My subconscious clearly has top-tier romantic ideas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When I set her down, I hugged her. It turned into this cinematic moment, and I thought, \u201cOkay, this is it.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I went for the kiss.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She looked dead serious: \u201cWe\u2019re cousins.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Me: \u201c???? SINCE WHEN???\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>My own brain invented fake family ties just to reject me in my sleep. She asked me to let go, wanted to pull away like \u201cthis is wrong,\u201d and I tried to calm her down, saying \u201chold on, we can talk about this\u201d (even though WE\u2019RE NOT COUSINS ANYWHERE), but she was already in full \u201cbye, weird cousin\u201d mode.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Then the dream shifted to me remembering her Threads post about the dance dress, and somehow I ended up thinking this whole thing cost me a spot on Who Wants to Be a Millionaire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yeah, the old Silvio Santos show that doesn\u2019t even exist anymore.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But I thought: \u201cShe probably doesn\u2019t even know who I am. I\u2019m literally nobody to her.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I woke up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Maroon tank top stuck to my sweaty chest, beat-up sneakers tossed in the corner, right shoelace untied as always. I grabbed my phone from the nightstand.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>So yeah, just a dream, nothing special, right? But to me, it was a dream \u2014 the dream, one of my dreams\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I lay there, trying to hold onto the details before they faded \u2014 like always. A bunch slipped away anyway; my own retelling didn\u2019t do justice to how it felt. But I did what I always do: I wrote it down. And I thought about feeding it to some AI to see what would happen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Still in bed, I opened Claude.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I started telling him the dream. Explained who Larissa was (someone I kinda know, friend of an ex-friend, we barely talk). Described the park, the walk, the almost-kiss, the \u201cwe\u2019re cousins\u201d twist \u2014 everything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Claude asked how I felt about it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cLoved it. I love what it created, what it showed me, the newness, the situation, feeling all of that. The rejection, the way it happened\u2026 amazing dream!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Claude seemed surprised. Said it\u2019s rare for someone to enjoy a rejection dream.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I explained: \u201cFor me, every dream is great. I love the random scenarios my unconscious throws at me in this \u2018reality.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We talked about it. About how I log dreams (55+ in the last few months, hundreds over 20+ years). How I value the experience itself, not the outcome.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Then I suggested: \u201cCould you write a funny, lighthearted story based on the Larissa dream? I was thinking of sending it to her\u2026 just because.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Claude was in. And that\u2019s when it started.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We built it together.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I gave the details. Claude structured it, suggested tone, tweaked lines.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We polished it. Cut the sappy parts, kept it honest but light. Kept the absurdity but respectful.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Rewrote a few times. Adjusted references (the Threads dress, Who Wants to Be a Millionaire). Made it self-deprecating without being self-loathing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Claude said: \u201cNow you can save this. It turned out great, right?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But I thought: no, I don\u2019t want to keep it to myself. I\u2019m sending it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI win either way. If I send it and she hates it, fuck it. If she likes it, bonus. Sending might bring something good\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Claude hesitated: \u201cYou sure? Once it\u2019s sent, there\u2019s no taking it back!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNot sending is permanent too.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Touch\u00e9.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We finalized the text. It was good. Funny, honest, light.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Claude asked again if I was really sending it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYeah.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And I did.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Opened Instagram. Larissa\u2019s DM.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Had to split it into three messages (character limit).<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Did it on my phone \u2014 paste one part, see where it cut off, continue in the next. Annoying, but doable.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Quick reread.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hit send.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Closed Instagram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Done.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I did what I wanted. Whatever she does now is on her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And I\u2019ll deal with the consequences.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Today, I\u2019ll live peacefully with whatever comes, because I lived.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But I started seeing something more in Claude\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I woke up with the dream still fresh in my head. Sunday, around nine in the morning. She was there. Larissa. I don\u2019t really know her. 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